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as many of you know i turn 30 years old tomorrow.

as of late, i have felt like that number was SUCKING the youth out of me....like a big youth sucker outter.

so, i'm not going down without a fight.

today, thursday is the last day of this gift of life I will ever spend in my twenties.  i've decided that the whole day is going to be a party.

how do i want to say goodbye to the twenties??

dancing, of course.

so, today i have headphones on with hip hop bumpin.  each person i encounter MUST put said headphones on and at that point begin to have a dance party with me.

let's dance people.

Oh, Ms. Winter,

why must you slap me in the face with cutting winds in my morning run to warm the car?  why must you laugh in the face of attempts to stifle you with coats, mittens and coffee?  Ma'am, I'm hanging on by a very loose thread for King Spring to arrive. i know i know, it hasn't been cold that long. but, it's just not my gig. 

Dear Friends,

some of you can continue  your outdoor activities (wearing a genuine smile) during the dreadful winter months. i can't. i get cold to the core and totally miserable.  i can't even camp out with friends during the latter fall months due to the shivers i get at night. i get so cold that i would call it misery.  i know, you'll say, you don't have the right sleeping bag and clothes..ect.  i have used them all, and still: cold.

Dear Snow,

You were beautiful.  So pristine.  Thanks for making the cold worth it..if not, but for a moment.

Dear pictures like this on the internet,

thanks for reminding me winter is a gift and can be fun even when i'm a whiny baby.

Dear Snowmen,

I like you. You bring me winter joy.

Notes to self:

Dear Kelly,

here are winter alternatives for warmth and joy:

a good alternative can be going to a coffee shop...to simply cozy up with a good book and a warm latte. but, there is a serious disclaimer.  the doors.  the doors open. breeze. close. open. breeze. close. open. breeze. cold.  then there is the option of a hot bubble bath. this is one of my favorite treats of winter.  I do this often during the winter months. the sad part is at the end when your water has gone luke and you get out and your cold again.  then there is the bundled up walk on the bridge with a good coffee.  that one is a favorite of mine. however, to far into it and your hands are frozen...even though you are wearing preventative clothing. But, embrace each day with the coolness it brings.  Enjoy the moments of comfort and warmth.  Look forward to such moments with glee. 

i just need a warm day.  a tree fully alive.  the feeling of a river bringing cool refreshment to a hot day!  a drive through the mountains with the windows down. a day at the park with the kids running through the fountains.  to lay down in a field late at night and to gaze deep into the summer sky!

Synopsis,

I like certain moments and the idea of winter.  I enjoy moments and if I were given the choice of living in a place where it was summer all the time, i would deny it. I dont' think i would want to miss out on the bundle up moments, the coffee's that warm me, and the possibilities of snowmen in my lawn. the beauty of barren trees aching for spring.  The big snow days I had as a child are some of my most coveted memories.  And I love that winter creates in me a deep longing for spring.

Dear mr. groundhog,

please please please see your shadow.

with all my love,

kelly.

dear northern friends:

 i know that i don't know what "cold really is."  no need to remind me.